Dear Journal -
I know I have been gone for a very long time! One of the main reasons has been that I have been working so much I don't always have time for other things. With the limited time I have, I try to get out and spend time with friends, I have to spend time with my daughter, granddaughter do self care stuff ie. massages and manicure pedicures, so I just always feel like I don't have enough hours in the day to do all the things that need to be done.
I have however written a few poems that I will put on here since I only have a few minutes before my next meeting. I wrote this about a week or two ago. I don't think I gave it a title so let's call it..........
Believe in you.
Disappear from my world, I cannot handle knowing your still in it, If you are here then I want you near me. For without you my life seems unclear.
You came into my world and it seemed it would be brighter but lies were told and truths were hidden and I became the wiser. That you were never a real friend and that all your truths would be uncovered in the end.
You said you were always honest but honest to who? Was it to feel better about you? Your words never matched your actions. The end would come I sought it out, but I thought without a doubt, that at least friends we would always be. But all you did was lie to me.
And all those moments were just to keep me around longer, you knew I was loyal, because I was older. And as I sit here writing this story, I only know that I feel sorry, sorry for you that you need validation, from woman to women seeking some pleasure as you feel that you were a failure.
I will tell you this however my ex friend, the fulfillment you seek are all within you, I know deep inside you still feel blue for what that other woman did to you! She broke your heart into pieces. She bared your children but didn't give you a family, yet that is what you truly and really wanted! And that is why when I met you, I felt that I needed to stay true to you. I wanted you to see your worth and that some of us are not the worse!
Now I know I stayed around for way to long, and yet you never even wrote me a song.
I’m hurting now and feeling betrayed, but one day winter will surely end and the spring weather will lift me up again! And I will blossom and I will glow even though your words were a blow. But no no one can break me the way someone broke you, because in your heart you will always be blue until you truly start believing in you.
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I will leave you with... One of my favorite Monet's Art Work... So beautiful!
