Dear Journal -
I know it has been sometime since I last wrote but as of late, my life has been pretty busy! I came on here tonight to write about something wonderful that happened to me this past few days while I was in Vegas (no I did not get married!) but I did for the very first time ever in my entire life won!!! and I didn't win thousands of dollars, but I did win a few hundred with the help of my amazing friend that was with me! I can't begin to tell you journal how much fun I had! it was just the sort of trip I needed it seemed like it had to do not only with getting money and having fun, but getting clarity and making thoughtful decisions.
Before I left to Vegas I had a pretty good idea that I was going to be dating someone I've dated before and part of me was telling me run and do it and the other part kept telling me, what the actual FUCK are you doing! I don't want to get into to many details but I am going to say this, I haven't been this single and this happy since I would say about 6 years ago. The reason why I was single and happy back then was because I was not in love with anyone and had no cares in the world, I was focused on my own stuff and all I kept seeing was prosperity and I feel the same exact way now, I am so focused on myself lately that all I keep seeing is myself prospering, I have a clear vision of my near future, I have a vision of what I want and don't want in my life right now and I have not had such a clear vision in a really long time!
I got back on some dating sites mainly because I don't want to loose my "dating skills" but I am also doing it so that I can get "back out there" I want to enjoy my summer and have a great summer! I don't really know when I will have time for anyone, but I guess if I meet people that I feel are worth my time, I will make time for it. Not really a priority but I'm not dead so might as well enjoy life while I'm here.
I have learned something new in the past few weeks or maybe I have always known but I still hope that people are genuine. What I learned was that people take advantage of those who are kind and have an open heart and want to be helpful to others, except people don't realize that you should keep the good ones around and get rid of those who pull you down. Throughout my life I have had many people who have thought that they can treat me however they want to and I will always be there. What these people don't know is that I see them, I can see right through people and in the end they loose, not me. I say this because whenever I am in someone's life whether it's in a friendship way or work way or romantic way or whatever, I try my best to be genuine and be there for people in the best way I can, but there have been many times in my life that people think I have an ulterior motive. I am just being me, I try to be authentic and genuine and as honest as I can be. So, with all that being said today when I had my therapy session and was telling her all about my most recent adventures I told her that all in all, I am truly happy and life is good! Life is real good journal! And it makes me happy to be able to write a post that isn't about drama or sadness or anything but good stuff!
Oh one last thing journal, if all goes well, I will be going to NYC in August for a concert to see all the old school rappers! I just hope I am able to get tickets for that show because it's going to be CRAZY!
I will leave you with....... RUN DMC! walk this way!!! wish me luck that I can get these tickets!!!
