I feel it coming

Wow! so long since I've last wrote you journal! and while I can't write much right now because I'm at a loss for words (shocker) I can tell you one thing, I'm feeling emotionally overwhelmed! meanwhile, the topic for my group today (I run a woman's group once a week) is on emotional intelligence.  I need to work on my emotions journal, because lately I'm feeling like I'm almost allowing things outside of myself run them, and I'm too smart for that, I need to take control of them and make them mine, control my own.  I miss you journal, I have thought about you quite often and I have to say that it pleases me that you are still ever so faithful just here waiting for me to say something again.  What would I do without this piece of me that I have neglected? It's just that I'm in a serious relationship and sometimes it makes it difficult to write because I am after all always writing about my personal life, except my life isn't my own anymore, I'm sharing it with someone and therefore I have to be mindful of what I will say so as to not offend or reveal too much. 

I leave you with a song, for some reason this song makes me sad, and I haven't even paid attention to the lyrics, just the beat makes me very melancholic..... I don't know why.

Name: I feel it coming
By: The weekend