Dear Journal -
I have about five minutes for you, so I will probably make this really quick! Time sure does fly by, it seems like only yesterday that I was planning my trip to Colorado, that I was miserable working at a place where I felt like I was not wanted or needed and like people looked down on me as if I was a piece of nothing, just another employee that didn't really contribute much to the overall organizational goal. Time flies though, and so much has changed!
In the 6 months that I have been in my current position I look at life in such a different way, things are more meaningful, my life feels fulfilled. Although in the 6 months I have had challenges where I was not sure if this is truly my calling, the moment I get a hug because I made a difference in someone's life, every single bit of it seems worth it. I have made many decisions that I will share with you when I have more time. But the most significant one thus far, has been to stay, to stick it through, to continue to make a positive difference. I love the people I work with which makes my job that much more rewarding, I can honestly say there is no one there that I have anything at all to complain about.
In general my life, my health and my spirit feels free, it feels good, I am alive! I often miss my friend AJ who I no longer speak to, it saddens me that he is to a certain extent the reason why I ended up in this wonderful new home. My heart breaks anytime I have some new development that I cannot share with him. I wish he would of seen things the way I see them, it never had to be romantic as far as I am concerned, the love I have for him is deeper than romance, and therefore it is greater!
I have been struggling with my weight because for a while I didn't care, I was reckless in my eating habits, little by little though I am changing that, I am becoming me again as far as food is concerned, I am becoming the healthy eater that I am truly. I am going to the gym again and feeling amazing about it. I have stopped using my injury as an excuse and looking for ways to work around it. I am getting older and realize there will always be changes coming that I will have to accept, not running anymore is probably one of them, but there will be more as time goes by. I am ok journal, and I promise that as time goes by, I will come back to you more often to share all that I am, and all that I am becoming.
Stay tuned..........
P.s. tomorrow I get to go to my first CSU Rams game! I can't wait, so much fun!
I leave you with..
The Walker - Fitz and Tantrums
I have about five minutes for you, so I will probably make this really quick! Time sure does fly by, it seems like only yesterday that I was planning my trip to Colorado, that I was miserable working at a place where I felt like I was not wanted or needed and like people looked down on me as if I was a piece of nothing, just another employee that didn't really contribute much to the overall organizational goal. Time flies though, and so much has changed!
In the 6 months that I have been in my current position I look at life in such a different way, things are more meaningful, my life feels fulfilled. Although in the 6 months I have had challenges where I was not sure if this is truly my calling, the moment I get a hug because I made a difference in someone's life, every single bit of it seems worth it. I have made many decisions that I will share with you when I have more time. But the most significant one thus far, has been to stay, to stick it through, to continue to make a positive difference. I love the people I work with which makes my job that much more rewarding, I can honestly say there is no one there that I have anything at all to complain about.
In general my life, my health and my spirit feels free, it feels good, I am alive! I often miss my friend AJ who I no longer speak to, it saddens me that he is to a certain extent the reason why I ended up in this wonderful new home. My heart breaks anytime I have some new development that I cannot share with him. I wish he would of seen things the way I see them, it never had to be romantic as far as I am concerned, the love I have for him is deeper than romance, and therefore it is greater!
I have been struggling with my weight because for a while I didn't care, I was reckless in my eating habits, little by little though I am changing that, I am becoming me again as far as food is concerned, I am becoming the healthy eater that I am truly. I am going to the gym again and feeling amazing about it. I have stopped using my injury as an excuse and looking for ways to work around it. I am getting older and realize there will always be changes coming that I will have to accept, not running anymore is probably one of them, but there will be more as time goes by. I am ok journal, and I promise that as time goes by, I will come back to you more often to share all that I am, and all that I am becoming.
Stay tuned..........
P.s. tomorrow I get to go to my first CSU Rams game! I can't wait, so much fun!
I leave you with..
The Walker - Fitz and Tantrums
Glad to see you writing Jazz. Keep up the good work with diet and exercise those are too tough for me.
ReplyDeleteThanks Charles! <3
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