Parks

 Dear Journal -

I recorded a voice journal but when I played it back it was too long so I decided that I would sit and write a completely different entry as I've been thinking about this one incident that happened to me the other day.  So I came back to Colorado because of so much drama to much to write about, but basically I pretty much had too! I'm happy/sad to be back, for a few different reasons, the main one being that I miss being in the coast.... OH BEACH! HOW I YEARN TO BE CLOSE TO YOU! any who, here I am back again and the BEST part of me being back is that I get to spend time with my little love bug aka my granddaughter! as a side note, the other day I called her love bug and she responded "i'm no bug" it was the most amazing adorable thing I've EVER heard! she's 2 years old and she had just learned about bugs! OMG I LOVE KIDS! they are like these little sponges of amazing energy and LOVE!

I always go on these tangents and get off topic and this is why I'm not a published writer, although while I was in college and I was writing way more, I told my writing professor that google had paid me because back then I was getting way more hits on my blog and my professor told me that I should consider myself a published writer as I was getting paid! HA! I wish! I guess had I stuck to my journal the way I had initially intended to when I first started it, I would probably have way more traffic and maybe google would still pay me, it was only a few dollars but still.  Regardless, I'm back and better than EVA! and I do want to try and write more.  So, what did Jazzy do to try and get some traffic going on her journal you ask? well, I did what any woman in my position would do! I put the link to my blog on a dating site and then I almost got kicked off of it! Hilarious! I am not really feeling the dating scene anymore, but I did meet someone that's cool and we talk and I've seen him once and it was so much fun! we will likely hang out again but thus far I don't feel that he is someone I will get anywhere with and since I am not like "into him" that way, it's easier and it's more comfortable because it's just a person I hang out with, and NO I have not been intimate with him, Jazzy is not rolling like that these days.  

Being single again is starting to feel more like me, sure there are those little hurtful moments that one has because you are out there "playing the game" but, I honestly rather deal with that, than the shit show relationship I stayed in for 4 years because I wanted to prove to myself, my family and friends that I "could be in a relationship" I literally went to therapy to try and stay in a relationship and work through my own shit so that I could be a good partner, lover, friend to the person I was with, and while sure that didn't end up well in the end, going to therapy is absolutely AMAZING! and I highly recommend it!

Parks... so, since I have been spending time with my granddaughter lately and I am just getting to know her, I did what any amazing grandma as I am would do to get her to love me! I started taking her to different parks! and I want to specifically write about this one day, that was freaking hilarious and I just have to share with you journal! so I typically don't wear make up I barely do my hair now that is growing it's always up in a bun and I love my sweats; a few weeks ago during one of my outings with my little love bug, I am looking like a bum, and from the corner of my eye I see this man with his kids, I think it was 3 of them.  Obviously, Jazzy is like........ did I just see a daddy? and I look and there he is, this hot dad talking on the phone completely oblivious that I'm standing there.  He's talking and as he is talking he is taking off his abdominal sweat band! at first I'm thinking, HOLY SHIT! did I just see that! and I'm smiling because I'm thinking, well that's good that he takes care of himself! Anyway, he's still far enough away from me that he hasn't noticed me and one of his kiddos, comes to play where I'm standing and he's staring at me the way little kids love to stare so I'm like......HI! and he says hi and we start having a conversation about how he is going to slide down the slide.  Finally, hotty daddy, realizes his son is gone so he starts walking toward where I'm standing and then.......DADDY NOTICES JAZZY! ok, I wish I had a camera for this priceless moment! his reaction was that of... OH! who's this? so he looks at me and says hi and now I'm feeling nervous and thinking, OMG, I look like crap GREAT! I say hello and tell him that his kiddo is by me and then I can tell he seems a little nervous and since I was nervous I grabbed my granddaughter and walked away as fast as I could!

Moral of the story, Jazzy forgot that the park is THE BEST PLACE TO MEET SINGLE DADDS! WOOT WOOT! thank you grandbaby! from now on, anytime I go to the park I'm definitely at the very least combing my hair properly.  No telling what adventures I can get myself into! this hasn't been the first time I've noticed daddy's checking me out at the park, so hey, all is fair in single life! I don't know if the man was married, I didn't notice a ring, but again, why not always look nice and pretty right journal? 

I've been feeling pretty happy lately, things are good all in all.  Life is way to short to be unhappy, it's also to short to let minor set backs in life bring you down.  I can't wait until the end of this month so I can go home! NYC watch out! Jazzy is coming to town!  I'm so excited because I haven't been back home during warm weather in ages, I LOVE NY in the early summer, it's sooooo fun! 

With nothing more to report I leave you with..........My latest celebrity crush because I watched his story on Netflix.  Bad boys were my thing back in da day, not so much anymore obviously.  I am pretty late jumping on the Niky Jam fan wagon, I known his music forever but when I saw the documentary, I developed a new respect for him as an artist.

Hasta el amanecer - Niky Jam